I don’t hide the fact that I’ve been knocked around by the IRS. It’s pretty obvious that those morons have dug into me. The dynamic blows: when I call, I view them as callow, shallow and parasitic opportunists that are too cowardly to make a buck so they hurt, enslave, and steal from others, anything to justify their existence. They view me as a tax cheat, unwilling to wait my turn to reap the benefits of work, and stealing money from welfare babies.
The truth is probably a little of both or something.
But, the real challenge of running around this way, the real bummer of everything I’m trying to do is that–since this became acute at the end of 2006, it’s been damn near impossible to retain money. They’ve levied multiple accounts while I was, in good faith, negotiating with them. The decisions I make have to be based on a shorter than normal horizon because they can suffocate me by taking what I do earn.
It’s gotten better since I shored up my accounting and since I got everything (more or less) correctly filed. I’ve learned that I can take a pounding and keep a marriage (more or less) together. I learned that I can be a good dad and not snap at my kids despite some fierce stress.
But, it’s frustrating as hell working as hard as I have learned to and not build wealth. I’m $85,000 in debt, today, and that’s half the amount it was. I’m chunking out money every single month and it’s exhausting to run to beat the devil. On my board sits the 5 major debts that I have (student loan, IRS, car, student loans for H & other).
Not having a reserve means you are on a rat race system, accumulating time debt and not able to do what you want to do. Still, since we cut expenses by downsizing, we’ve got the wiggle room to move, because we don’t have any weeks that cost more than $800 bucks. We can beat this thing back $300 at a time, and we are. The interest each month is less.
If I didn’t have bizarre confidence in my skills, I would have caved a long time ago. I know that I will beat this thing, and build something. $35 dollars at a time, $200 dollars a week. All it takes.
Oh, yeah.
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